3 MONTHS ALREADY

Well like everyone says...make sure you spend every waking moment with your babies because time goes by way to quick. Well its true. It feels like yesterday when I was looking into my baby girls eyes in amazement thinking she's mine, or i can't believe she's actually here. I loved her from the moment I saw her, but my love keeps on growing when I see her smile at me or give me a half grin, or even a little giggle when I do something absolutely retarded. She knows whats funny.

I love watching her dad play with her, and how she knows who he is. I love watching Dayne put her to sleep and how she'll calm right down and fall asleep. He's awesome with her.

I truly am grateful for eternal families and know that we can be together forever.

Update...

On Saturday Dayne and I just decided to head up to Cardston to surprise my Great Grandparent with a visit, because they hadn't seen their Great great granddaughter yet. And it was special because we now have a generation of 5 living "Belles". It's been the middle name of each first born daughter in the families. So...Grandma Tanner, Grandma Evanson, my mom, me, and now Haylin.

Pictures.....

My Sweet Haylin Belle....

Haylin was born Oct 27, 2010 @ 9:37pm. She defiantly made me work. I was actually admitted in to the lethbridge hospital that Monday because of my health, i had high blood pressure and was very swollen so the doctor put me on bed rest at the hospital. Tuesday, the doctor decided to use a gel to try and make things happen. I got contractions for about 6-7 hours and then they stopped during the night. So the doctor told me to get some rest because i was going to have a big day on Wednesday...I was having a baby whether i liked it or not. Doctor came around 6am in the morning and checked if i was dilated enough to break my water, and sure enough I had dilated 3cm so he broke my water.


The nerves started to kick in, and i was shaking and couldn't stop.


After he broke my water, he said that if i wasn't contracting by 8am then he was going to start me on the drip. I was having a few contractions here and there but nothing major so that's when all the fun began. I feel bad for anyone that has to be induced, just from my experience and what the nurses were telling me, being induce sucks! Being forced into labor can really put a toll on your body because your naturally not ready for this baby to come.



I was doing really well until up to 6cm, the only thing that sucked was that I had to labor in bed...oh ya fun stuff...the doctor didn't want me walking around because of how high my bp was. So ya i had to lay in bed which was the worst thing possible. Finally by 5-6cm I didn't care what the doctor said I was standing up, and oh my goodness what a difference. I could actually breath.



Soon after they sent me to the labor room. By that time I had only tried morphine for pain. That did nothing....all it did was make you fall asleep between contractions. So thats when they asked me if i wanted a epidural, i was hesitant at first because i really wanted to do it natural, But it took me a matter of 3 seconds to change my mind. And what a blessing that was!!! Having a epidural was heaven....for the time that it lasted. It worked for maybe 4 hours and then I could feel full on contractions on one side. Not a fun feeling. Nope. There was a button that I was allowed to push every 15mins to give me another shot of the medicine, but it was jammed, nothing was happening...so slowly things started to wear off.

But before I knew it, it was time to push! I pushed for 2 hours to finally meet my baby girl! I cant say it was a wonderful and amazing experience because it wasn't for me. But to be able to hold Haylin for the first time was a blessing! I love her and I love my Husband! And now i have a family of my own.

Count Down....

So my due date is Nov 13th, 2010....
I can't believe that its getting so close, I do have a feeling though that I'm going to be induced a little early. My BP keeps on going up and down and the doctor doesn't like that. So I've been doing alot of running around, going to appointments to the clinic and also to the hospital to get NST's (Non-Stress Tests) done for the baby. Its been going good. Baby is not at all stressed, she likes to move around lots.
And today I get yet another ultrasound...Dr. said that this ultrasound will determine whats going to happen in the next couple weeks...eeeek!
Any whooo....part of the reason I blogged today was because I wanted to here as much helpful ideas that i could use while I'm in labor. I plan on doing all natural, plus I'm having the baby in Taber so they don't have all the good meds like lethbridge has.
So, please if you have any helpful ideas that i could use that helped you ladies out during labor then I'm all ears. :)

Rest In Peace Jax

If you've read my last post you would have read that Dayne and I had to give up of your dog. When I found out I had Preeclampsia I knew part of the stress was Jax, as much as I loved him, it was hard to keep him happy. Most days he had to be on a leash because we lived in town and Jax would just run off if he wasn't chained up. Jaxy loved to run and play and I felt I couldn't give him that! Especially now that the doctor told me I needed to be on bed rest. So dayne and I decided to give him a new home to a family that lived on a big farm and had another dog to play with. We would here from the family how much fun he was having and that Jax and Snookie (the other dog) would snuggle together at night. They were best friends. Sadly, I got a phone call on Monday saying that Jax was hit by a potato truck and passed away. Jax was running along Beckie (the new owners) vehicle, so she stop to go pick him up and take him back to the house. But it was to late, the potato truck didn't care to slow down and hit jax, and almost hit Beckie as well! My heart goes out to that family, I know they loved jax, as if he was their own. And for this incident to happen in such a short time I can't even imagine what they went through. Especially Beckie because she saw it happen. I know things happen for a reason, but i couldn't for the life of my think of why this could have happened. Luckily I have a mom that told me something that put me at ease. This could have happened for the simple reason as the driver needed a wake up call and jax was it. She said jax could have been a life saver. Who knows that if this never happened, it could have been either Beckie or one of her kids that got hurt. So thank you mom for telling me that. I'm glad jax went sudden and didn't suffer! Beckie said, jax just looked like he was sleeping. Makes me feel alot better knowing that. Jaxy will always be remember and never forgotten! Loved ya Buddy!

...not a good day

So today was a regular check up at the doctors today! I was excited to hear how well everything is going because I thought I had the perfect pregnancy.


My thoughts were wrong. Usually my check-ups consisted of peeing in a cup and then right after they would check my blood pressure. They did do that but found things in both my urine and blood pressure they didn't like. Found out my blood pressure was really high and that they found protein in my urine. My doctor then explained to me that I'm at risk of preeclampsia and the possibility of preterm labor.


So now I'm on blood pressure medication and I have to go in everyday just to see how my blood pressure is and if the medication is working and also I'm now doing every week visits to the doctor and have to get blood taken every time and bed ridden.


I guess the main reason I'm torn and upset is that i had this plan that i would basically work till my due date, because Dayne will have started school Oct 18th and who knows when EI will ever come in. And the fact that we have to get rid of my dog jax. It sounds silly but right now I have 2 dogs at my house. 1 is my own and the other we're babysitting for my in laws. My dog is very energetic and always wants to be outside and run around. The other....is older, but hates my dog and is very picky. I just have no more patience to give right now. I can't even go on a walk. Its quite depressing actually.


So ya, today has been a major down for me. And I feel terrible that I have to get rid of my dog and know that my husband is losing a friend. Dayne has been nothing but a support on my end and i guess that's why I'm having such a hard time with letting my dog go! Because Dayne didn't even hesitate to say no or say we can figure some alternative out so we can keep the dog.


Anyways...sorry to put a damper on everyones day I just had to let it out.